No promises , Only hopes....

 Hello!

[Please try to read it completely as I'm so in need of honest and supportive opinions:)]

I have no clue as to how to begin a formal introduction for a blog. This is my very first time and...I don't know about any of the steps or methods to do this!!

I'm a student who happens to be interested in writing though I don't know how much of me is a writer as I hold that title in high esteem.

So basically I'm an ordinary girl in pursuit of my dreams and who is weary of people ;not so about the way they are ,but the way they choose to be, to hurt and offer lectures on why you are worthless.I've got zero confidence on where I'll reach or whether I can do it..if I can create something  or ..relish the feeling of sanginuity it offers.

I've begun this quite secretly :not a soul knows I've started 'blogging'.

I've actually entered this world because lately it's been just depressing for me like most of us owing to the lockdown period and the many questions it poses including that one of immense weight for the 2020 12th batch: Can I go to school in this last year of my schooling?

To be honest , I'm here not because of reasons of my grief just like the reopening of school or the uncertainty in the corona crisis. I'm here because my personality is questioned. Because I have been turned down by people in an area I love immensely : my love for English language and anything that's associated to it! Because there are people who want to trample over me and enjoy my fall to ashes.

And their problem is not ending with the individual I am ; it expands beyond that .

Their problem is with you too, a person who is soft spoken and can't really be so loud voiced to emphasize your presence, a person who is gifted and has worked your way up to heights however low the elevation right now is ....a person who knows just to love and expect in this world of survival of the fittest...

I'm here to prove someday that all of us can soar higher too even if the odds are against us....but  I lack ideas ,I lack confidence, I lack a voice!!I hope to find them all here. 

I'm including stories , poems or articles or just reflections on the various topics that bother me. I may not be a frequent blogger as I've still got the workload of a student but I hope to strike a connection with all those here someway or the other to find solace in you ...in this world that I've imagined to be a colourful place in the greater scheme of things.

Like my title I offer no promises but these are the hopes of a nobody starting to aspire high...someone who had daydreams about the world in a shining armour in her tales of sorrow harvested from having no one to listen....someone like millions who have found a home in writing, often just for assurance and as a life jacket the way it has been to me!!

Have a great day ahead!


Comments

  1. AnonymousAugust 27, 2020 at 12:30 AM

    I have no clue of who you are abd what you are...or maybe I have...but I would like to tell you this is the only blog I found relatable to my life.All those coming of age dramas and books,they are just confined to American and British teens...so happy to see someone coming up with a
    different content.Maybe I am nowhere there to judge your writing, I feel the cent confidence in you even when you say about the zero confidence in you....may that's what we mean by the idea of 'confidence'.
    Not to forget,your language is beautiful with its simplicity...so just pour yourself out...opinions will come by your way..All the best
    ......

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  2. Ayisha sanaAugust 27, 2020 at 7:14 AM

    I don't know who you are but you're concept and the way of thinking is really great I am same of you I never thought such think this will turn to a great I know we have alot to do as a student but you so much cofident in your zero confident all the best

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  3. PYTSeptember 5, 2020 at 6:06 AM

    Fathima..... very good attempt!! Keep going....Ur words seems to be honest!!

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  4. AnonymousSeptember 5, 2020 at 6:07 AM

    Waiting for more like this...All the best..

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  5. WishSeptember 5, 2020 at 6:11 AM

    You will, my girl, get over with your problems and realize that all that your feeling now was just the proof that your a thoughtful person....all such people have this problem with their self..i guess.
    In the future when we'll meet for an alumni meeting....I'll sure to see you in the heights you never dreamt of.....
    All the bests and Love
    D.

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