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PRIDE AND PREJUDICE

It never felt quite okay to peep into the well near my home, that triangular vessel of mystery, because anytime, I was told, the arms of an octopus residing there could strangle me, taking me with it, into the depths of darkness. Certainly, that was the longest-living nightmare that they had managed to inculcate! The crocodile in the black waters of the washing machine was short-lived comparatively! Blue sky, for me, didn’t hold just the white, puffy clouds or the birds up there! Not when Dubai or London was up there. Why else board an airplane? That particular teacher in school, who had dark rings around her eyes evoked fear in me; dark circles meant no sleep. Could she be really awake all night? Today, I look at myself, and I am amazed at how life chooses to answer some doubts-and wish they never arose in others now! Ironic, isn’t it? Definitely, children were born when that wedding knot/chain was tied. Why did some people not become parents, then? Surely, the knot should be tightene...
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A Dream

I had a dream today..  Of a distant past ;  Only to wake up to the dream I was living Now a nightmare I saw with open eyes..  It was the dream I dreamt of  When I was in today's dream.  Living within the bliss ,  Dreams do come true!  Those do not, hurts bad.. Like it does now,  And those that do , too... Like it does now.. 
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Untitled On Purpose

 Not raising voice was what I feared,  And now I am dumb.  Being trampled over was what I dreaded,  And now I am neck deep in mud.  To not be you and to forget who you were is death, I believed.  I am at the verge of extinction.  To pile up work is idiocy,  And yet I can't look back  The sands of time fall over me..  Muffled cries buried with more of them .  I thought my bed at home would cushion my fall everytime I do,  Today I lie on bare ground.  To be the reason of your pain is no bed of roses; Only the thorns prick me today.  To still go on when it is tough was what I admired,  Today I look up at my grit,  No , I didn't quit!  It's been a long way And I can see no horizons in the longer way to traverse,  But I will keep going! 
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EMPTY

 A vessel filled brims.  Up to the brink and,  Yet empty...  There is a void beneath the waves,  Or air caressing the flow.  Defies logic yes,  Poets marvel the swirl and curl; But what do you call the static flow?  When the waves lull it to stay hidden The abyss unseen!  The stoic screams are unheard.. .  Were they there? 
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Happy New Year!

 And another year passes by..  Exactly one year since I last posted something here. And what has the 365 days been all about?  Uncertainties in the beginning, those times I thought how great it would be if I could fast forward to the future to see where I will land after the safety zone of school. From boards to a packed 3 month preparation time to tears before exam, during preps and after exams, worries and gloom..  It still feels like the bright life I had is distant or has dimmed the path.  And on my 18th birthday, on October 27th , after much apprehension and depression and excitement  ,I GOT IN!  I got into an IISER!!  Ever felt how it was like to cry of happiness? I did then.  I felt giddy. My biggest dream had come true!! I knew I chose a difficult path. I know I'm in for a lot.  But in spite of all warnings and doubts,for 2 years, I kept my passion in tact. I didn't prepare for this rigorously or attend a coaching from morning to...
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VITA NOVA

It was just a fantasy the last time when we believed it would be fun to relish a year of sitting at home-no pressure, no timetable;just leisure ! We grew over the idea ,got busy with our lives and was set to make the most of the last year at school(12th graders);after all,we'd miss school the most when we look back . It's some sort of contradiction that you get things you want, when you have the least desire for it(Say,God's first law of juxtaposition). True to the saying 'If you want to make God laugh,tell him your plans',we were all shut inside ,we grappled with fear(insert present tense wherever required) and were anxious about the future(if it existed). Conspiracies,Online games,Netflix,OTT releases,Online classes,Online work,Late night activities and late morning slumbers-Is the passing year that shallow? Or did we learn to go with the flow and deal with disappintments? A roller coaster ride,with highs and lows,depression and elation,dreams and nightmares....We...
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Likes And Dislikes

One of the arduous tasks ahead of my fifth grader self was to find a 'zero disliked' video in YouTube, as almost every  videos or songs I loved or I was madly in love with that had soared to popularity had dislikes and hate comments that made you curse Steve Chen,Jawed Karim and Chad Hurley for ever having founded the platform .I was sure Nehru or Gandhi's videos or related videos would be the solution, as they were our prominent nation builders. How can anyone hate them? IIT,AIIMS,IIM,ISRO- Every institute had Nehru's signature -bold or light.And Gandhi was a globally revered figure! I got to know I was badly mistaken-more so today with equal or larger amount of seething hate pouring towards them with myriad hues of religion and politics adorning reasons. My pursuit went on and it still goes on for the final destination but nothing of immense popularity struck me. I was devastated(and still am):If fame meant respect and service meant love,what was this? That was my int...
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